Wednesday 14 May 2014

Count to 20718360 and I'll be home

7 months, 3 weeks, 4 days, 19 Hours, and 6 Minutes

Total Days: 239.795833333333

Total Weeks: 34.2565476190476

Total Hours: 5755.1

Total Minutes: 345306

Total Seconds: 20718360

Prince Not-So-Charming

So maybe Mr. Perfect isn't as perfect as I thought, and I don't know why. He's gone from wanting to talk to me all the time, skyping every day and staying up to 5am to talk to me, to pretty much nothing. We haven't skyped in two days, didn't talk at all yesterday and now we're talking but I'm lucky if he replies once an hour. I miss just talking to him. I miss him. Did he just not realise that this would be hard, and now regrets his decision? Has he met someone new? I wasn't expecting him to wait, but he was so insistent that he would, and now what? Now I'm here across the other side of the world, so dependant on this boy for my happiness and he can barely give me the light of day. Fan-flipping-tastic. I want him to either go back to how we were or just tell me it's over, he can't have it both ways, not interested in me enough to actually give me attention, but interested enough that he doesn't want to let me go. No, I should say I want him to tell me it's over, because I really don't. I really really like him, he's smart and funny, and kind and genuine and he makes me really happy, but at the moment he's just making me feel like shit. This is why I said I didn't want a long distance thing, because it's so much harder to know what the other person is thinking/feeling/doing when you're not with them, but I thought I'd met the perfect guy and I didn't want to let him go, maybe I made a mistake. I hope I didn't though.

Monday 5 May 2014

ily

I was in a good mood after a 2 hour skype chat with the guy I really like and a nap, so I made a gif to send to Anna and I thought it was cute so I wanted to share c;

Sunday 4 May 2014

Dad if you are reading my blog then stop. This is not for you. Respect that and stop.

Saturday 3 May 2014

Not That I'm Counting

8 months, 1 week, and 1 day

Total Days: 253

Total Weeks: 36.1428571428571

Total Hours: 6072

Total Minutes: 364320

Total Seconds: 21859200

My Life's a Sitcom, and I'm the Butt of the Jokes.

My life isn't some stupid romcom. He isn't just going to show up at my apartment with a suitcase, a bunch of slightly wilted roses and his stupid grin. Even if he does come we're not going to have that stupid moment at the airport where I see him and run into his arms and he picks me up and ughhh. We're not going to have some stupid montage of us being cute and seeing the sights all set to some stupidly perfect pop punk soundtrack. He's not going to keep skyping me everyday with his stupid cute little face and adorable laugh. He'll get bored. He'll find someone closer. Someone prettier. Someone easier. I don't want him to, and he says he won't, but how could I have picked someone so different to everyone else I've ever dated. How can I have picked someone who's actually so perfect for me? Who's willing, nay, who wants to stay up until 5am so he can skype me for 2 hours. This can't keep up, or it will turn into some stupid romcom scenario, and I don't know how to deal with something that good.
I miss you.
Please come and cuddle me and tell me everything will be okay.
8 months is so far away.

"Shameless" self promotion of my powerpoint skills ;)

I've recently started watching Shameless (the US version) and it's pretty rad, so I made a powerpoint to explain the basics to Anna, and then thought I'd share my masterpiece here (if you don't understand the whole tumblr powerpoint layout thing I suggest you do some googling and educate yourself) there are a few minor spoilers here, so if you don't want that then don't read on, if you don't mind then go ahead! I would definitely 10/10 recommend this show, though I will warn you there is the occasional bit of nudity (mainly just tits but the occasional dick) and some very strong language, as well as adult themes (drugs, alcohol, sex, etc) so yeah. Enjoy!